Those of you that know me in person know that I am prone to mood swings. There's a reason that I write some pretty depressing songs, I use my songs as an outlet for a lot of emotions that would probably otherwise get squished down to the sub-cockle region where they would cause problems in 20-30 years.
I've kind of hit a block in songwriting this week though. I don't know if its because I'm waiting for my Nord to be functional (going to buy a fuse sometime in the next two days), or if its because I'm super nervous about actually following my dream instead of just dreaming about it in a cubicle. Either way, the lack of songwriting has caused a dip in my spirits.
A lot of it is nerves. I had some pretty unreasonable expectations about what Toronto was going to be like when we decided to move back, mostly centred around getting jobs quickly and pursuing music at the same time. While I've made progress on the latter, the former is elusive, and I tend to worry that if I actually succeed in getting a job it will derail the momentum I'm building with the music career. It's kind of a catch 22 though because the music career isn't paying enough to pay bills or really anything other than gas to get to and from the gigs.
Anyway. Now that I've got that off my chest, what do you guys do to lift your spirits when they're down?
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